My students are taking a math test right now. My classroom is silent. I'm caught up on all of my grading and emails to parents so I decided to visit my blog. It's been a long time since I've visited. It's been over a year since I've blogged anything and I'm not even sure people still blog or even read them. I need to get mine published into a little book full of stories, memories, and pictures.
So much has changed since I last visited my blog. In a nutshell my beloved dog of 17 years died, my incredible-beyond-words father of 42 years died, and my marriage of 6 1/2 years has died. That's a lot of change in just 7 short months. My dog was old, my dad was sick, and my marriage was in trouble from day one. Even though everything has its reasons for happening, it's still a lot to deal with when it does finally happen.
So now it's just me. Just Kristina. I got another puppy and named him Digger. He's half Yorkie so he reminds me a little of Tank. Things with my dad's passing has mostly settled, although my mom is still dealing with attorneys over his estate. You can't just leave this world - it doesn't work that way. You own things? Have a will? Have any money? It takes some serious paperwork to exit this planet. Life has mostly settled back to a new normal for me without my dad. I miss him. The dissolution of my marriage won't be final for another two months or so - sometime in April. I filed - that part was my doing. I can't control the marital winds that have been blowing at me for all these years so I finally had to adjust my sails which is taking me somewhere else. I don't know where. I miss my husband. I miss what I thought we'd have but never did. I miss having hope - it's hard to wait for something you know might never happen but it's even harder to give up when it's all you wanted.
A lot of change. A different me. I've got a lot of updating to do - memories and experiences to blog about so I don't forget them. So I guess this begins a new chapter of me.
